I have always loved this season. I have so many memories of family from when I was a kid, when my kids were kids, and now my grandchildren are kids. The tree, the presents, the snow, the decorations, the lights, the food, the family, it's all part of the sinues of my life.
But the last several holliday seasons have grown dark on me. Partly due to my now having an empty nest. Partly due to being retired and out of touch with the work-life and many associates I now no longer see. Partly because my wife has left and I now live alone. But these are not the real source of this darkness for me. For me, the source of the problem is truth.
As I began to research more about the history of Christmas I discovered the folowing things:
- The colored ornaments come from the same pagan roots as the easter egg, recounting the sacrifice of children before pagan alters.
- The tree and its decorations are specifically abhored by god - see Jeremiah 10:3.
- The date is not Christ's birthday at all but is that of mithras and falls on the pagan astrological time of the winter solstice.
- Santa Clause was a mean guy with a switch that had a goat-like creature that would kidnap the bad kids and torture them.
- The yule tide logs and trees were phalic symmbols lit on fire during the 12 days of Christmas to celebrate pagan (demonic) gods.
At the same time I have learned of these and other horrible facts about Christmas, I have come to appreciate the biblical calendar and the feasts fo the Lord. The feast of tabernacles celebrates the true birth of Christ much more accurately and in a much more God honoring way than Christmas does, yet no churches participate in these feasts. They have become Jewish to us. We have forgotten Chirst was a Jew. We have forgotten the feasts - the season from God with a reason.
What I wish I could do is just get everyone I know to just change the dates we celebrate and instead in the fall, when Christ was actually born, go campoing together at succot (feast of tabernacles) and not have a tree but instead have a lamb.
I am called by scripture to worship God in Spirit and Truth. This has made my enjoyment of Christmas, the tree, the non-koshre food, the after-work drinks, the black-friday shoping fest, the presents, the lights.... all become as hollow symbols of pagan celebration in total ignorance of the truth of the word of God and of history. It has cheapened my relationships with my family because I am celebrating something I now don't think God likes at all. Sure he loves us to love each other, that is really the point, but we no longer have the balance. We have Sprit/love/grace without truth. It doesn't work.
I am always, every year, at a loss as to what to do about it. I love my family. I love my friends. I know where they are coming from and I want to be with them when people finally are given some time off work so they can actually BE together. I especially want this now when I live alone, though in a beautiful place, the times together mean so much more to me than they ever did as a kid or as a father with kids in his home.
We live in a culture that has so completely abandoned the true God that even those considered the most pious line up the decorate the city tree or get those presents or do that Christmas special celebration to honor Chirst. I no longer believe Christ is really honored at all in this except for the belief so many hold that as long as Christ is the center in your heart, it's all good.
Saternalia and Mithras are really what are being honored and a lot of the atheists and agnostics know it. They know Christmas is a counterfiet of older pagan feasts. They know it is nowhere condoned in the Bible. They know the catholic church foisted this on us go gain unity and membership and control. They laugh at the stupid Christians that don't understand their own bible.
But if I challenge the very idea, if I bring it up, I do nothing but isolate myself from my brothers and sisters in Christ and from my own family and friends.
Christ predicted this would happen and I have a choice. Is there a way I can still celebrate Christmas with my family and friends and not dishonor my God based on what I know?
I no not how.
This I have found of all truth - rarely is it popular, rarely is it believed, rarely is it honored and it leaves a bitter taste deep in your gut once you realize you have swallowed it.